In trying to write a post five times a week, I have discovered three things (well, at least three):
- I don’t have the energy to both write each day and tidy up the house.
- I will choose writing over tidying every time.
- The house has now gotten so untidy that it is starting to depress me.
Since I am a person who has struggled with depression for years (and yes, I take medication for it), I have decided that today, with whatever amount of energy I have, I will tidy up as much as I can. I know from experience that a tidy house will make me feel cheerier. It gives me at least one aspect of my life over which I have some control. The problem is that I hate spending my limited energy actually doing the tidying. So I put it off. But getting it done is actually a way of taking care of myself, as long as I don’t over do it.
So today I will not let myself write until I have gotten at least two areas clean, clear, and peaceful. The oxymoron embedded in that sentence can be explained by telling you that I actually wrote this post last night. 😉
Now do something for yourself today that makes you feel better. Even if that something is taking a nap.
See you tomorrow. xo